The Seven-Year Itch

No, this doesn't involve a boyfriend (I didn't even have a relationship that long!) but friends. I read all over that the seven-year itch can also apply to your friends. I'm blogging about this because I am slowly losing friends that I thought would stick around 'til we grow old. At the same time that Ted, Robin, Barney, Marshall and Lily's friendship faded, ours faded too. I can't pinpoint the exact moment we drifted apart but right now, I know that we did.

I care too much about people in my lives. As much as possible, I try to be there always. But when things got shitty in my life, I started to doubt myself. I became too focused on trying to make myself better and maybe, a part of me forgot to try to be there. And things got more confusing as other aspects of my life became more shitty. As much as I want to help out, I don't know how because I don't want meddling into people's lives. If you tell me things and ask for advice, I will give my two cents but if not, I won't ask. Although I won't say that I am perfect because I can be irritating or insensitive sometimes. That's the way I am.

In life, there are friends that will remain your friends even if you rarely see each other. Some of my high school friends I only see once or twice a year but when we are together, it feels like we just saw each other the day before. I always thought that that would always be the scenario for us... but I guess things will never stay the same.

I guess we are going through our seven-year itch (we just celebrated our 7 years of friendship last year). I'm not really sure if things will go back to normal but I have a strong feeling that it won't but hoping constantly that it will. Feelings have been hurt and I'm still praying that I can have the courage to face you with a smile on my face. I am hurting and as of now, life is getting more shitty (in all aspects!!). I've been losing a lot of people lately: someone special, family and friends. It's like another breakup all over again.

But I will continue to stay positive and I learned that "Everyday and every way, It'll get better and better."

Of raffle tickets, travels and BBE

I rarely join competitions or contests ever since I can remember. The closest thing I know of are cake/rice/car raffles in high school where we are required to sell PHP 2000 worth of raffle tickets (I end up buying them or asking my parents to buy them for me). In all the raffle tickets I bought, I never won (even a cake!) So I just don't believe that much in raffles anymore lol (unless it's for a cause I support!). Now online contest are so popular, especially here in the country. Every week, I will get messages from my friends asking me to like their picture on a certain page and all that shiz, you know the drill. I enjoy watching my friends join them but for me, I just don't have the marketing skills. 

I found out about the Big Blog Exchange from a few bloggers I follow who won last year. I followed their journey traveling around Europe and I can imagine myself doing the same thing. So when this year's BBE opened, I entered quickly. Although, it's shooting for the moon, it's worth a try. 

Last year was full of sh*t and I really lost my way. That was the time I decided that I love to travel. People say that traveling is a way of escape. A part of me thought that I loved traveling because of that but I was proven otherwise. I realized that I like discovering new places and immersing into new cultures. I also learned that traveling can be of help to my self-discovery journey. I've traveled to different provinces here in the country since 2006 through Gawad Kalinga, a non-profit organization based in the Philippines that build and sustains communities for the poor. That was a gateway for me to travel around the Philippines. I saw the beauty of the country and interacted with the poorest of the poor. Through this, I know that I wanted to see more of the world and meet more people. I have met the most interesting people I know through traveling and this contest can be a channel for me to continue my journey to self-discovery. As I go to different places, meet new people, I pick up little pieces of myself and rebuild my life. This has been the greatest therapy I had to battle my sadness and bad thoughts.

So if you would like, kindly vote for me here :) I would super appreciate it.

Like a Fool

I first found out about the movie, Begin Again from my Facebook timeline (I guess that's where you find out about anything new nowadays). When I saw the trailer I fell in love with it quickly because of three things:

1. Stars in it: Keira Knightley, Mark Ruffalo, and Adam "I'm fcuking hot" Levine!!
2. Soundtrack!
3. Same director of Once (I loooove that movie! If you haven't watched it yet, go download! And you'll be singing Falling Slowly for weeks!)

Honestly, I forgot when this movie was showing and I don't watch movie regularly (BECAUSE IT'S SO EXPENSIVE! I still remember movies for 90 pesos!!). I again found out that it's showing here in the Philippines from my Facebook timeline lol. I immediately went to the movies after finding out that it's showing and I watched it with my sister. 

And it did not disappoint me! It's the perfect kilig/feel good/chill movie. Plus the soundtrack was amazing. Although everything sounds so the same. The story line was good too, sort of like Once. I like the ending because some people end together, some don't and some just finds their way back to each other (and seeing Adam Levine heartbroken makes me want to hug him).

So I just want to share my favorite song from the movie. I like this just because. Listen to all their songs, I'm sure you'll want to watch the movie ;)

We take a chance from time to time
And put our necks out on the line
And you have broken every promise that we made
And I have loved you anyway

Took a fine time to leave me hanging out to dry
Understand now I’m grieving so don’t you waste my time
Cause you have taken all the wind out from my sails
And I have loved you just the same

We finally find this, then you’re gone
Been chasing rainbows all along
And you have cursed me when there’s no one left to blame
And I have loved you just the same

And you have broken every single fucking rule
And I have loved you like a fool

Under the sea

I found a new love with the sea and its creatures. Ever since that first visit in Bantayan Island in Cebu, I've been addicted to discovering more of the beautiful beaches in the country. I went to Panglao, El Nido, Siquijor, Camiguin etc. and I feel more in love with the beach.

This new found love keeps growing every time I go somewhere and this made me want to try diving for the first time. I was very excited when Ter invited me to join their company's intro dive "outing". I immediately said yes because it will be very cheap since we are a big group. Although I don't know anyone from Ter's company, I still went. She also invited Jerms and Rache, Ter's friends from Citi.

On the way to Anilao, Batangas

Days before the trip, I was feeling really sick because of my colds and cough but this did not stop me from going on this trip. We went on the weekend of June 28-29. We were scheduled for the Sunday dive so our Saturday was spent roaming around and just chilling. It was also good so I could rest and pray that my colds will be gone the next day.

It was great meeting new people and really loving their company. It was such a fun and relaxing Saturday.

I'm a sunset-over-sunrise person so I was sure I won't miss seeing the sunset at Anilao. Of course, God did not disappoint me because the sunset was amazing ♡!!!! We watched the sunset with alcohol in our hand (Thanks to Ter's boss for sharing his vodka)