EXPERIENCE LIFE

My word for 2014 was DISCOVERY and boy, did I discover a lot. I traveled around the country from Luzon to Mindanao, I found new interests, I had other means of income, I learned things about myself etc. I loved 2014 because I got exposed to different situations and I still remained strong and I think this is really the secret of life: Standing up in every hardship. Always remember to move forward!

So as I move forward to 2015, I plan to EXPERIENCE LIFE. After a year of discovery, I think it is time to start experiencing.

I don't want to see or just discover things, I want to feel things. I want to start feeling life as it unfolds in front of me and not just the good things but also the bad things. Before, I always run and hide because I'm too afraid of failure or getting hurt. I focus on one bad feeling and don't let other feelings come in. That's why I had missed opportunities. This time, I will face everything head on. Whatever life may throw on my face, I want to feel ALL the emotions. I believe that feelings strongly affects one's life and as I start to feel and understand things, I get more actions done. I realized that I feel so uninspired most of the time because I don't know how I am feeling. I don't have any motivations because I let anger and hatred rule my life just because of one thing that happened in the family.

But I won't let feelings rule my life because you know, sometimes when you let your feelings decide your actions, you can get a little stupid (especially in love. Chos!) I will just allow emotions to flow in my system and stop blocking most of it away. 

So I welcome 2015 in a more organized manner and stronger than ever.

Year end post

I couldn't say much about 2013 without sounding hurt, sad and bitter but 2013 was really full of disappointments, heartaches and people leaving. It was such a hard year for me because of the breakup, the moving out thing, my mother leaving for Canada and work related issues. Despite all those, I remained strong. But of course, I could have not done it without family and friends who were there to back me up. I just have to thank them all personally and give them the tightest hug I can just to say thank you. 2013 has really taught me a lot.

I wouldn't remember 2013 as full of heartaches but I would remember that year as the year that I was strong enough to face everything.

So cheers to 2014, the year that I will continue to become the best version of myself :)

Ending 2010 not with a fizzle but with a BANG

I was thinking about 2010 and I thought it was really uneventful then I realized it was in fact, FCKING AWESOME! A lot happened and it will forever stay in my LTM. Great time with family, friends and myself. ;) I have a very colorful planner this year and I’ll share it with you guys lol.

This year’s bests…

• New crush. If you know me that well, you’ll know that I don’t get crushes easily LOL.
• Ate Kate got married. Amazing beach wedding.
• That night before hell week parties. I won’t forget how tipsy I am when I arrived Anjo’s birthday. And yes, they said I told things……
• ILC Baguio.
• Sweet birthday. I AM FREAKING 20 YEARS OLD L
• Gabaldon! I would never forget this place; the view, the batis and the people.
• I GOT DRUNK FOR THE FIRST TIME. WON’T ELABORATE :( But awesome time with friends and I love love them for taking care of me…. awwww. haha!
• That Sofitel sleepover with my high school friends.
• WORLD CUP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you Iker Casillas!
• New president: Noynoy Aquino. First time to vote.
• USHER CONCERT. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
• Derf’s: TR’s new tambay place.
• FATHER DACANAY!
• WOHOOO BLUE EAGLES J First and last season to support our blockmate, Jek.
• New baby in the family, Baby Jam.
• More Gawad Kalinga builds.
• Gossip Girl and Glee are back. YAY.
• First lotto experience.
• A Christmas to remember♥
• TAGAYTAY OVERNIGHT. BEST NIGHT EVERRRRRR.
• At your service, YES. (JEEP)
• TUMBLR.

This year’s worsts…

• Experimental Psychology, F YOU.
• FATHER DACANAY LOL.
• Worst semester ever (3rd year, 1st sem).
• Issues.
• Got drunk.
• NO MONEY.
• Still FOREVER ALOOOOONEEE. LOL LOL LOL.

OH GOSH. Really, this year was okaaaaayy. This year was a time of bonding with friends I love and of course, my family. More drinking J Goodbye weird allergies. Tumblarity’s gone = Less drama. Chuck and Blair, ‘nuff said.

I don't really know what I will rant about but I will definitely rant in this entry. I got inspired by Marai's message on my tumblr's cbox ;) Anywayzs, I think this will be a very looong RANDOM rants about everything that has been happening in my life. ;)

Ok. Where to start? Hmm, 2010 has been nice and passive to me. Nothing super depressing or super exciting has happened so my life really SUCKASS. NAT! :)) So hmm, I started my year right by spending it with my DB's, WASAK. It was a before-school-starts thing and I enjoyed everything but not the I-got-thrown-in-the-pool-for-a-million-times. Great! :))

Then there's school. It's okay. 3 weeks seems like forever. Ang tagal magsummer break. NAMAN! Sci10 is boring me forever. Italian is overflooding my brain with uhh, Italian words? haha! But i love Italian. I will speak Italian later. WAHAHAHAHA! History made my brain bleed during the first long test. Eco & Dev Psy still makes me zzzzz. Personality is uhh, personality. LABO.

Testing my italian skillz:

Buongiorno! Il mio nome Tepai. Ho dicianovve anni. Sono Filippina, sono di Manila. Sono studentessa in Ateneo de Manila University studio AB Psychology. Parlo Inglese, Tagalog e Italiano(un po). Mangio ciocolatte! CIAO! haha!

K. Ayaw ko na! haha. Nakalimutan ko na yung iba! haha! sana walang Italianong nagbabasa ng blog ko kundi napahiya na ako! HAHA!

Ay grabe, I just realized that most of my batchmates and barkada will graduate next year. :| I realized this during Marianne's 20th birthday. They were all talking about OJT and thesis and everything a 3rd year student should be doing and I was like.. clueless and lost and sad all at the same time. Haha!

Anyways, I love these girls so so much and yes, I had a lot of fun during Marianne's birthday celebration. I did not spent any money. YAHOO! ;) Thank you Marianne and Belated happy birthday to you!

Ow. About graduation.. Did I tell you guys about my new crush this sem? Yes, I finally have a new crush. Pero fail coz he is Chinese again and guess what, he's a senior. :| SUPER FAIL! and I only have 6 weeks left. AWW! Oh well, time to look for another crush next sem BUT please remind me to pick a junior and NOT chinese because I want to proove to everybody that I get crushes on non-Chinese people! haha! :))

K, what else? OW, I can't wait for Ate Kate's wedding on Feb 7. I had fun looking for shoes with Ate Coco and Ate Kat last Friday at Glorietta. It was an adventure. After shoe shopping, we played Rockband in Katipunan! YEHEY! I want to rockband again. Please? haha! :)

I realized I am still too lazy to really really rant because I am just giving summaries on what happened and everything. WAHAHAHAHAH! Lazyy me. :| That's why I kept on getting low grades this sem. I feel so uninspired. HAHA! NAT.

Anyways, a while ago at Mcdo, Tito Benjie, Kuya Justine and I are having this conversation about driving and having a boyfriend. I posted this in my tumblr but I will still rant about it here. (I've been using the word rant for a hundred times in this entry. WALA LANG!)

A conversation in Mcdo a while ago:

Tito Benjie: Hindi ka pa ba nagdadrive?
Me: Hindi pa po.
Kuya Justine: Wala naman din siyang idadrive e. Ang advice ko nga diyan is either mag-aral siya magdrive o maghanap na ng boyfriend.
Me: Ahhhhh. ok.
Tito Benjie: Eh pano pag yung boyfriend niya walang kotse? Tapos ikaw pa maghahatid sa kanya.
*LOL*
Kuya Justine: Tepai naman, kasama sa requirement yun. Yung mga kuya mo nga hinahatid yung mga girlfriend nila tas ikaw, ikaw yung maghahatid sa boyfriend mo.

Me: K, im going. bye. :))

HAHA! Nakakainis talaga si Kuya! So, does that mean pwede na ako magboyfriend? Haha! DOI. My mom is insisting that I should find a boyfriend. LOL! Oh well, not in my vocabulary so WADDUP? I am spending my Valentines alone. Hahaha! I was reminscing on last year's valentines day and OMG, all I can remember was PUKE! haha! Single's night out ulit! =)) Pero wait lang, yung mga kasama ko dun may mga boy na yata ngayon! LOL =)) FAILZ.

Aynako. wala na. haha! this is a very fail and random entry so it's okay if you don't read everything. LOL. K, yun lang. I'm hungry. zzzz.
Bye to all my blogger friends! >:D<

Thank you 2009

Family lurve. YYEHEY! Even thought we’ve been through a lot this years, our family stayed strong throughout the year. Aww. SOBRANG CHEESY! Haha!
Ok. Highlights of the year:

1. Mother went back from Ireland.
2. Sining’s 2nd birthday.
3. Laguna Trip’s I love and missed because of those ballroom finals.
4. KUYA TJ & ATE JOY’s wedding ♥
5. Ondoy
6. Sunday Fun days at Katipunan.
7. Birthdays
8. Kuya TJ & Ate Joy’s house blessing
9. Baguio trip that I won’t forget. :|
10. Christmas with the whole gang.
11. Family dinners/lunch na kumpleto kami.
12. Baby James! :)) :)) :))

This year was full of emotions. I felt sad that Kuya TJ got married but very happy at the same time. I just feel like the house is so empty without Kuya Mark and Kuya TJ. Sanay kasi akong maingay sa bahay pero ngayon … minsan na lang mangyari. But the feeling goes away when they visit us here and stay here for the rest of the day. You can’t really take that feeling of happiness and joy away. I love them to bits. ♥
but please, Kuya Justine.. don’t get married yet. Hahahaha! :))



M&M loves. High school was still the best years of my life because of all the fun experiences and much easier loads but what made it the best-est is because of these girls I looooove the most. I love these girls to bits even I rarely see them(except for Patricia and Tereysa haha!)
Hmm, highlights of the year:

1. Marianne’s 19th birthday.
2. Ter’s 19th sleepover birthday.
3. PE Uniform Slumber Party.
4. Rockband days at Blue Skies.
5. Nina’s 18th boozeday.
6. Rhea’s 19th birthday
7. Movie dates.
8. Marianne & TJ’s 2nd year anniversary.
9. The ang-hirap-humanap-ng-taxi-kaya-magjeep-na-lang-tayo-tapos-umabot-na-tayo-sa-Q.Ave-para-sa-wala day! :)) :)) :))
10. Jeysi’s SURPRISE birthday.
11. Visit UP people day.
12. Ondoy volunteer days.
13. The not so surprise happy birthday Patricia day.
14. Christmas partyyyyyy!

and mooore. I can’t remember the rest. haha! Basta, they are the best barkada eveeer and I can’t imagine myself being elsewhere. NAKSSSS! haha! I hope to see more of you next year. Please let us go out soooon!


Arnneyow people. I bonded more with old and met new friends this year. Had a new block, I still miss being classmates with my TR block but I like C2.
K. Highlights of the year:

1. Bonding moments with Kristhul and Marlow.
2. Swimming at Marlow’s.
3. Birthdays and Debuts this year.
4. Ballroom days I won’t forget. (Midterms, Finals and M-W, 1-2pm, 1st sem)
5. NSTP :(
6. Hello to a new crush this sem. ♥
7. Sec walllllkkkkk.
8. Marlow’s debut.

Yehey. TR, thank you for the wonderful year and the bonding we had this year. The sec walk, flaming wings and other moments we shared. You make going to school easier and fun. Thank you for the morning people I’m with every morning(kaya nga morning people e haha!) Marlows, thanks for the stalking days. haha! alam naaa. :)) K, imma shut up. Baka may masabi akong bawal. hahaha!
To all the friends I met this year, thank youu. To my ballroom friends, WE SURVIVED. haha! never again. I enjoyed ballroom classes because of youu kahit na galit lagi sa atin si Adora. haha! C2 block, thankk youu for making me feel welcome. your block is cool! :) to the stressing days and to my groupmates in all the subjects, thank yow! :D



DBs. Yes, I’ve been a bad girl this year. More inuman sessions=more fun! haha! Lots of revelations and actioooon happened this year. I won’t forget the sessions at Patlo’s house. Ay grabe, that is where it all started. :)) Highlights: Basta. I won’t mention everything. Just thank you for making my 2009 a whole lot of fun from Gran Matador to Bacardi to Cuervo to GSM blue to The Bar! HAHAHA! :)) I will always treasure the dramas and the laughtrips we had this year. I am hoping for more fun next year! Woot woot! WASTED nights.
And ooow, WALA NA AKONG ALLERGIES!



GK & YFC. I’ve been inactive in YFC and been active in GK this year. I dunno but I can’t feel that fire of service I felt way way before. YAK. Haha! Basta, it’s something different. YFC did changed a lot ever since the split and so did I. I’ve been a very bad girl this year haha! :)) but still I love my YFC family and this year’s ILC(Cebu) is the first ILC I missed since I joined YFC. aww. Anyways, GK occupied some of my YFC time and I just felt inspired by the talks and events I went to this year.
Highlights:

1. Bayanihan Builds
2. Youth camp
3. My surprise birthday party at Abi’s (aww)
4. GK talks
5. Visit at GK sites.
6. Comeback Sectorcon
7. I-met-Iza-Calzado day.
8. Kaya natin ‘to concert

YFC friends, thank youu for the times I spent with you. Youth camp this year was the bomb, I miss being a facilitator and yes, I miss the feeling of serving and worshiping but again, it’s not the same :( Oh well, more fun and less drama. To the new friends I made because of the camp, thank youuu kahit na tinadtad niyo ng gm’s ang cellphone naming lahat HAHAHA!
GK loves, I learned a lot this year because of you and I can say that I became more exposed to what GK has to offer. Too bad I missed this year’s Bayani challenge. I promise, I WILL GO TO PALAWAN NEXT YEARRR!
We ROCKED 2009, LET US MAKE 2010 AWESOOOOME!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR BLOGGER FRIENDS. :)
--from tumblr.

Year ender again

So 2008 was fun. Thanks to all those people listed below and to these memorable events that happened in my 2008 that I am looking forward to have this 2009.

I won't forget...

January
Jan 11. Marianne's Debut(Grand Terrace) - I really had fun. First debut of the barkada. The program was fun and I will never forget the piano charm that I gave Marianne. na na na na, You are the music in me Haha!
SHS Fair(SHS)- First time kong bumalik ulit sa Holy.

FebruaryFeb 16. Theresa's Debut(Sofitel)- Masaya. Nagpictorial kami habang nag-iintay kasi late nagstart. May class pa ako nito pero nag-cut ako! lol. Super kain at super party. Ehh mayaman si Ter e! haha.


MarchMarch 1- First time kong gawin ang maraming bagay. First time kong sumakay ng LRT 1, bangka at ng 3 loooong jeeps sa isang galaan. First time sa Navotas at Malabon at may nanlibre pa sa amin. Hindi ko talaga makakalimutan toh!

April
April 24. My debut(Giligan's Makati)- salubong sa birthday ko. 18 na ako, legal na ako, pwede na akong makulong.. eeew! haha. Super saya kahit na super crammed yung preparations. Met up with old friends.


May
April 30-May 5. Bohol Trip- It was fun. First time in Bohol and I fell in love with Panglao. ♥ Lotsa memories. Worshipped under the rain.. freezin cold.
May 6. The news- I passed ADMU. :)
May 16-18. Youth Camp(House of Angels)- Last camp na ako yung chapter head. It was a great camp, maganda yung bonding na nabuo.
May 25-27. Sining's 1st Birthday(Tagaytay)- Aww, 1 year old na siya. I had fun in Tagaytay. Lotsa things we did.


June
June 5-7. Orsem(ADMU)- Block TR rocks kahit na discriminated. Uhh, hello new friends, new people and new school.
June 19. First visit sa USTe- First time rin ako nakatikim ng baha! LINTEK!
July
July 25. Rhea's Debut(Sulo Hotel)- First time ko silang nakasama sa overnight kasi first time akong pinayagan. Hinding hindi ko malilimutan ang napakagandang sayaw with matching napakagandang costume. SHET! haha. Hindi ko rin malilimutan na muntik na kaming ma-pick up ng lalaking hindi namin kilala at ang tantrums ni Nina sa paghahanap ng alak at swimming.
AugustAugust 30. Eraserheads reunion concert(The Fort)- OMG, mahal ko sila. Sayang lang at hindi tapos pero sulit!

SeptemberSept 6. Pig's debut(Anabels)- Nanood rin ng UAAP game sa bahay ni Patice. Uhh, umiyak si Jervy Cruz :( Panalo ADMU :)
Sept. 25. The wait is over- PANALO ATENEO after 6 years. Need I say more? Matagal kong inintay toh at last year pa ni Papa Chris pero hindi siya good game :c oh well.
Sept 27. Jessie's Debut(Dulcinea)- Masaya. Sabog pictures of Jessie revealed.
Sept 30. Bonfire(ADMU)- OMG, PUTIK! Yun lang.

OctoberOct 4. Katie's Debut(Moomba)- bonding with SHS and UST friends. Wow, pinayagan ulit ako mag-overnight. Metrowalk then bahay ng tita ni Mina. Walang tulog. Maraming revelations.
Oct. 13-14. Sembreak Party(Marianne's)- Isa pang sleep over! WOW! haha :)) Super saya kahit na may sakit si Nina :c Nag-enjoy ako. First time sa bagong bahay ni Ter, wow! haha.Oct. 25-26. Metrocon(Cavite)- Masaya. First time kong umiiiiiyak at maglabas ng sama ng loob sa isang YFC conference. Salamat gurlies.
Oct 31. Abi's debut(Richmond)- Overnight uliiiit. Gran Ma overload. Allergies ng malupiiiiit!

NovemberNov 14. Night of Adventure(Decagon, Metrowalk and Marlo's Condo)- Taxi Hopping at Starbucks hopping ang ginawa namin. Overnight ulit! :) Nagbonding kami ni Kristel OMG talaga tong adventure na toh. Never ko tong makakalimutan.Nov 26. Marlo's birthday(Club Filipino)- Nakita ko si Erap. Videoke.
Nov 29. Mariz' birthday(Mason st.)- Masaya! New friends. Or.gy!Thalia's Debut(Celeb)- bonding with TR.


DecemberDec 6. Wala akong tulog. Bayanihan Build at Brgy. Batasan, Inspiring. Tas inuman at Mariz', FUN! Then Aura's debut na super layo. Went home at exactly 3am.Dec 11. Rockband. Ja, Jao and Anna. Hindi ko makakalimutan ito. Alam niyo na kung bakit.Dec 13. Ogie's debut(Damar Village)- I won't forget this kasi pinasayaw niyo ako ng Sana Mama in front of everybody!
Meeting with Tito Tony. Na-inspire ako.
Dec 19. Paskuhan(USTe)- Hindi ako pinayagan mag-overnight :)) First time kong nakasama ulit ang Musha.
Dec 20. M&M Christmas Party(EP)- Mayaman kami.
Dec 25. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA JESUS. First Christmas na wala si Mama.
Dec 28. Papa's Birthday- First time na makumpleto ulit kami sa mass(pero siyempre wala si Mama). Day out with all the girlfriends.

MEMORIES are FOREVER. lol. I will never forget 2008.
So I will say it again.
HELLO 2009 and GOODBYE 2008.