Thursday, March 15, 2012

It's about time to use my heart.

A few days ago, I was sitting on a tree stump, overlooking Baguio City with numerous thoughts on my mind. I kept on thinking about the years that were and the years that will be. It kept on running on my mind that I felt really tired... not physically but mentally.

The senior's 5-day silent retreat held in Baguio City was a very fulfilling experience that I would never forget. As those thoughts run through my head, I felt exhausted until my retreat director reminded me to stop using my mind. I have been using it for the past 4 years in Ateneo and it was time to use my heart. And she was right. The moment I used my heart, I heard the things I have been ignoring for the past few years that I have been busy with school and other stuff.

The retreat helped me to make time for myself... to know myself again and to rebuild my relationship with the Being who I've been ignoring. I learned so much about myself and even if answers were not given to me, I'm satisfied with what I accomplished during the retreat. It's more than answers about my future that I needed, it was knowing myself again then after that, I can be more confident about my future.

It's really a great way of being a better person, seriously. It's not just thanking God about the years in Ateneo but continuing to be grateful for all the blessings that will come. It's not just knowing what career to pursue but following Jesus' values and being an example to people around you. And it's not just about thinking and knowing answers but feeling and sharing love.

So I came to the retreat for discernment about my career and this other thing but I found out something more... It will something that I will treasure forever.

The future will be confusing and hard but that won’t stop me from doing the things I love and being brave to take a leap of faith :)

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