Sunday, February 19, 2012

Just because it's the month of love

I don't know if this is the right time but today, I will write about...

You were once a dream, a dream I never expected to come true. You seem so far away and I thought that you will forever be lost. But then you came and now, I am as happy as ever.

You make my heart skip a beat again. You make me smile randomly while thinking of you. You make me excited when my phone beeps or rings. You just made me alive again...

You made me so alive that I am beginning to become scared. Scared that you might leave me, the way others have left me. I always have this issue on trust and as days go by, I feel like my guards are going down. I don't want this to happen... well, someday but not yet.

I won't say anything about love because it's not yet that. In denial or not, what I definitely know and will forever be sure is that I AM HAPPY and I will forever remember the days you made me happy so in the end(whether the ending will be happy or not), I can say that that I did not regret a single day being with you.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Where you invest your love, you invest your life.

I think I need to update this more because of... uhm, security reasons haha!

I'm just confused with school, the future, love... basically, LIFE. I will be graduating in a month and I don't know if I am ready to face the real world out there. I feel like I have really been sheltered so much by the schools I went to, friends and family. I know I can make it through but I'm just scared, who isn't? I want to take a rest, travel and explore but everyone around me is saying otherwise.

I am happy with some aspects of my life. Very happy. But with this happiness comes confusion too. Maybe, I'm scared too. (OH GOSH, I'VE BEEN SCARED WITH A LOT OF STUFF LATELY... WHYYY?) I just don't want this to end and with my past with this kind of thing, I always end up alone and sad.

I know I can do this. I can make it through.

I'll face the future with my head up high and you by my side :)