I care too much about people in my lives. As much as possible, I try to be there always. But when things got shitty in my life, I started to doubt myself. I became too focused on trying to make myself better and maybe, a part of me forgot to try to be there. And things got more confusing as other aspects of my life became more shitty. As much as I want to help out, I don't know how because I don't want meddling into people's lives. If you tell me things and ask for advice, I will give my two cents but if not, I won't ask. Although I won't say that I am perfect because I can be irritating or insensitive sometimes. That's the way I am.
In life, there are friends that will remain your friends even if you rarely see each other. Some of my high school friends I only see once or twice a year but when we are together, it feels like we just saw each other the day before. I always thought that that would always be the scenario for us... but I guess things will never stay the same.
I guess we are going through our seven-year itch (we just celebrated our 7 years of friendship last year). I'm not really sure if things will go back to normal but I have a strong feeling that it won't but hoping constantly that it will. Feelings have been hurt and I'm still praying that I can have the courage to face you with a smile on my face. I am hurting and as of now, life is getting more shitty (in all aspects!!). I've been losing a lot of people lately: someone special, family and friends. It's like another breakup all over again.
But I will continue to stay positive and I learned that "Everyday and every way, It'll get better and better."