#20 Go to Palawan

I have been dreaming of going to Palawan ever since.. (I can't even remember when) That's why I've been itching for Feb 22 to come ever since we booked our El Nido trip last November. Another item off my 30before30 list! Yahooo!

El Nido is 6 hours away from Puerto Prinsesa and our van leaves at 12:30pm. Before heading to this long trip, we decided to eat at Kalui first. I fell in love with the interiors and the artworks in this restaurant. It is better that you have reservations in this restaurant because when lunch time comes, it gets packed. Good thing we arrived there super early. Before entering the restaurant, you have to remove your shoes. It was a good experience. The meal was delightful. For seafood lovers, you will definitely love this place because most of the food in their menu's seafood :)

Art exhibit inside the restaurant

We arrived El Nido at around 5:30 pm and this is my first sight of El Nido:

El Nido is ethereal! I can't describe how beautiful the place is and my pictures can't suffice. You really have to see it for yourself :) During our first night, we decided to go to Corong Corong since we have to pay our accommodations for the 25th. We had dinner there and at around 8pm, the lights went off. It is normal for the island to have random brownouts and they have a regular brownout at 6am-2pm. I got scared at first but when I saw how beautiful the night sky was, I wished that the lights will never come back. BEST NIGHT SKY I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE. I STILL GET KILIG WHEN I REMEMBER HOW BEAUTIFUL IT WAS. I FEEL LIKE I WAS IN SPACE.

The best picture that we had of the sky

 I wish I could see that again. So we went back to the Town Proper after dinner and had a good night sleep

Being the better person

We are always advised to BE THE BETTER PERSON. When people put you down, be the better person. When your family or friends don't appreciate you, be the better person. When your loved one hurts you, be the better person. When someone leaves you, always be the better person. Well fcuk this, I'm tired of being the better person.

I always try to do what is right. I have been brought up that way and I am proud of my parents for teaching us to be good. But sometimes, I'm tired of being nice. I have proof of how life is so unfair and I know that it is but most of the time, I don't understand it. It's unfair. In my heart and soul, I know that I always try to be the better person. I put my pride down to be the better person. I set aside my feelings to make other people happy, especially those that I love. I don't ask for anything in return when I do good, because that is not the point of doing good. I just don't see why my life is falling apart while bad people stay happier than me. They are blessed with too much while most of my blessings were taken away from me. Is this really how the world works?

I guess so. I have been reflecting on my life these past few days and I am really on my way to the lowest point of my life. I'm getting scared but I'm trying to stay strong. I feel like I have been avoiding conflicts by being too good and not pointing out what I'm feeling. My thought of 'being a better person' is more like being a coward. So I am tired of being a coward but I won't get tired of taking the higher road.

With all these negative thoughts, I am still trying to be very hopeful for my future. There is a brighter side and I badly want to go there right now. But I have to be patient, that is all I must do right now.