Uninspired

I have been battling a lot of issues these past few days and I don't even know where I can get inspiration from. This is not even about my ex anymore, it's all about the family, my work and myself.

This thing about the family is emotionally draining. I just really feel so emotional about the whole issue because everyone is really trying their best to fix everything but you're the only one who's not cooperating. I just feel so depressed that you're burning a few bridges and I'm not even sure if we can build it back. This is just too much to take in especially if I'm so stressed and busy with other aspects in my life.

When I entered our family business, I was assigned in HR and there are a lot of things that need to be fixed. Then since Christmas is coming up, we need to double our sales so the board decided that I should handle sales too (together with Marketing). It's just too much to handle with my state right now. I know that I can do it, it's just that I can't do it well. I really want to do my best and excel but I'm just really uninspired right now. But with a little help from my friends, I know I can do this.

Okay, the issue with myself is so confusing that even I can't understand so let's just not talk about it.

When it rains, it pours

My life is such a blur since the breakup. Fcuk Murphy's law. Everything is just going wrong. After the breakup, I've been really uninspired to work. No motivation at all to finish what I planned on doing. Then this family issue suddenly came out of nowhere (The worst family issue we had in years). Plus, the being alone at the house is not helping at all. It just really sucks when all these are happening and you're lonely.

Maybe I just miss him, being there when I want to forget and just be happy. I just miss his company which I won't have anymore. It's times like this that I want someone to be there to hold my hand. But yeah, I have to deal this alone but I have God on my side so I better get through this fast :) I'm just not really good with changes (very abrupt, mind you) so I'm still adjusting with the breakup then family thing. 

Storms don't last forever. I just hope my storm will subside faster because sometimes, I just can't deal with it anymore.

Desserts is STRESSED spelled backwards.

I miss blogging and I feel like I'm neglecting this blog because of tumblr and school works. Yes, tumblr comes first. JOKE! Anyways, I'm gonna rant about how stressed my life is these past few months and some random stuff.

Life as a third year student is not like a walk in the park. We all have super heavy work loads and it is killing us. I realized that because my TR block does not 'tambay' anymore. No more secwalk people and no more I'm-gonna-leave-my-bag-in-secwalk-because-my-blockmates-are-there days. I miss the good old days lol.

SECWALK. I miss staying here. This used to be TR's tambay place for 2 years. When I pass by there now, there's no more familiar faces that I'll see. Although are names are still there, tee hee! :)) My tambay place now is the Rizal Library or Matteo first floor. LOL. BOO. No more tambay sem(hindi lang tambay week haha!). AWW.

ESCALER. We also used to stay here for a while. 2nd year, 1st sem. It's because of the super hot weather that's why we decided to tambay here. LOL. Tirso, ftw! :)) But we got kicked out because they found out we were eating there. There was a time that a No loitering sign was placed there. haha! :)

MATTEO UP. Freshies tambay place. lol. First few weeks of 1st year, 1st sem. 'nuff said.

Wulah lang, I just miss tambay-ing. I want to tambay again but I can't because of all the things I need to do. BOO.

Stress of my life:

1. EXPERIMENTAL PSYCHOLOGY. It is killing me and the other Psych majors out there. We have quizzes every meeting, lab reports every week, long tests and all those shiznits. Every time I see Psychology majors around ADMU, all we talk about is how stressing Expe Psy and how it's taking over our lives. I can't go out anymore because of the papers we have to do. I am just happy now because there's no lab yesterday because of the Feast of St. Ignatius so I am super thankful for St. Ignatius :D

2. THEO. I need to make up for all the low quizzes I've been getting from Fr. Dacanay. I need to do well in the quizzes because I think I'm getting a low grade on the orals on Tuesday. GOSH, I'M SO NERVOUS. Good thing ADMU won last yesterday against NU. WHOOO.

3. PHILO. TOO much readings. NUFF SAID.

4. PHYSIO. OW gosh. The class is fun and Ma'am Ang is really really nice BUT the subject is just not so my type. LOL. I hate science. I also need to make up for my 1st long test. I am not satisfied with my grade. :|

THAZ IT. Thank you Cognitive Psychology for not giving us too much stress! :)

K.

Other random stuff:

1. UAAP. I just hope they get into the Final four. Kahit hindi champions, basta Final 4 so that Fr. Dacanay will be less angry. LOL. When I was watching the first ADMU game against FEU, I can't feel the hype anymore. I dunno why, all the players I love graduated already. Aww. I'm just watching UAAP now to get updated because Fr. might give a bonus question again. LOL.

2. GAWAD KALINGA. Body hurts because of the build yesterday but I miss this kind of feeling.

1st death anniversary of Cory Aquino. Time really flies so so fast eh?

K. WALANG KWENTANG POST. UGH.